The day began with a fine smile on my face and with a promise in my heart to do something good for myself. Took a half day off from work and went out with a dear friend / brother. It was important. Really important. While he drove to drop me at the metro station, a little conversation with him made me realize about how wrong I was. Despite the fact that I knew what I did was wrong and that I have no right to involve anyone in my personal problems or for that matter i need to learn to handle my emotions myself, I still did a silly mistake which ofcourse I should'nt have done in the first place but, yes, I did it. I spoiled things. I dont understand why, when and how I became so weak. I was not amongst the one who would break down in=front of others. Till date I have handled myself strongly. So, all of a sudden what went wrong, even I do not know. I guess knowing it is not even that important nor does it matter. What matters is the solution to it. Solution lies in doing things that I like, but what do I like?
I like writing, so I am expressing myself here, - but is it really helping?
I like debating for which I joined online debating society, - but now I dont even want to debate.
I liked Pineapple Ice Cream Soda, but it does not taste good anymore.
I liked spending time with myself, but it has become scary.
I liked working like a workaholic, but work is no more interesting?
Well! I definitely need to figure out a solution, I will do it soon, I guess all I need is patience!
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