Bikaji Cama Place

Bikaji Cama Place is a huge building. One of the fine looking government offices in India. The ambiance, however is really pathetic. With all babu's decked up in their old fashioned suits, they consider themselves to be the Gods of the aam janta. Since its these people who are supposed to give you the so called clearance, you have to respect them, no matter whether they actually deserve that respect or not. They will issue passports to all sorts of criminals, tharkis, terrorists, will make fake passports for people but will not issue an Indian passport to a person who shall be representing their country at the international level. So my story begins in the following manner:-

First Visit:

Sundriyal Sir: Nikita aap apne papers lekar ek bar bikaji cama place jao. 6:00 pm tak ka time hota hai. Abhi nikal jao, aur kisi samajhdar bande se apne papers verify karwa lo.

Me: haunted by the name of Bikaji cama place, I took a deep breath and said ok. I left with my feriend mady, who just accompanied me because she wanted to spend some time with me and was not in a mood to attend classes.

So, together we left and reached in one hour.

First counter: Madam ab aap kal aiyega, tokan ka time khatam

Me: but i just want to get my documents checked today.

First counter: Go to the counter No. 3 , wahi apko bateyenge.

Counter No. 3: madam ji ab aap kal hi aiyega, hum isi kaam ke liye thode hi na baitha hai.

Me: (Frustrated on hearing this) toh sir phir kaun batayega.

Counter No.3: mujhe nai pata

Me: Almost loosing my temper, but the very next minute a cute looking guy said

Cute guy: come I will make u meet someone who helped me out. She will help you also- Kaushal Aunty

Me: I did not know how to react, but the guy was cute and helpful, so I listened , secondly - I had no choice.

Kaushal Anty: haanji bolo beta.

Me: Showing her my papers, explaining her my strange story which have already been written in my birth history blog, I asked her for help.

Kaushal Aunty: Get these verification papers ready from a person who have the magistrate authority and see me on Monday. I will get it done.

(With relief in heart, I called my College Principal and told her the whole story. We sat in College till 6 in the evening, the whole office was running to court to get my documents ready)

VISIT 2:

All of a sudden Kaushal aunty shows her true colours, and denies to help.

Me: Nikita be strong, its ok. Collected my papers and got into the line. Finally I got the token. One hurdle crossed.

I waited for my turn. The whole day I sat in that boring place, the musical sound hurt my ears. I felt nostalgic, sick and worn out, but I still waited and kept praying. After four hours came my turn.

Me: (Glad, a lil nervous) these are my papers

Counter No 4: She took ten minutes to check my papers and said, beta apka yeh verification form par photo attested nai hai.

Me: I did not know about this. I have got the papers ready as ready in the form.

Counter No. 4: Yeh nai chalega. Aap yeh abhi karwa kar laiye

Me: Ok.

I called my College Principal and asked her to stay in College as I wanted to see her. Poor thing was about to leave for a university meeting but cancelled it for me. I ran to the college, fell twice on the way. Once on The Civil Lines metro Station and the second time I slipped from the Escalators in a very funny manner.

After reaching College;

Me: Munna Bhaiya, Principal mam ki stamp do

Stamped the papers and badged in her cabin without noticing that she was in a meeting. But she welcomed me

Principal maam: Signed and attested my documents and said all the best

Me: I ran waving her bye in air. Dint have time to chat. Had a deadline to reach. Messaged her thanks while sitting in metro.

Visit 3:

Reached passport office on time, went to the lady and got it done.

Counter No. 4: Beta arey! Yeh nai chalega. Principal yeh verification nai kar sakti. aap Couter No.2 par jaiye

Counter No. 2: these papers are not valid. Your principal can not verify ur papers. Only a gazetted officer can do it.

Me: But my College principal is a gazetted officer. She has the magistrate authority.

Counter No 2: Nai hoti

Me: But you must check . She has the authority

I argued alot, kind of faught with him. But nothing worked. I called Sundriyal Sir, spoke to maam on phone , they asked me to come back.

Please Note: According to law the Principal of a college which comes under University of Delhi ishas the magistrate authority.

The so called babus of the passport office, the so called intelligent , literate people sitting in one of the most important government offices of India- has knowledge = peanuts. This person is asking me to get verification from an under secretary, whereas the post of my college principal is much higher and she has the authority to give me the certi.

I felt like shouting at this fellow, wanted to ask him to update his knowledge, but I somehow could not do so. He was of the age of my grandfather. Somehow that respect came in me. I wanted to curse him out of frustration but somehow I could not. Maybe my culture and my morals barred me from doing so, but I just know one thing- This is simply not done. What happened is simply not correct.

P:S. I do not know whether I will be issued a passport or not, but I will try once again.

Happy Birthday Shubhda Di

Happy Birthday Janeman. May you have a long and a sexy life. May you keep Smiling and shining throughout your life.

Please Note:

Born on Dec4, 1988 is an angel. This Darling girl is a gem of a girl and has an amazing personality with an equally loving heart.

her loving nature is evident from her following acts:

1. Fantastic Accent

2. Sexy personality

3. Cute Smile

4. Beautiful heart

5. Brilliant Mind with a great IQ level

6. Cute style in which she says " Baddua de denge tumko"

7. The cute way in which she kisses on the forehead

8. Warm hug

9. The way she treats everyone around her

10. The way She always said - Bhaiya Chaai

11. The respect she gives to everyone

12. The way she handles things.

13. The way she dances on - Munni badnam hui darling tere liye

Wat do I say yaar, I miss your every single action, your hug, your smile, your support, the way you used to wipe my tears, the way you used to get irritated, the way you used to scream at me. Every bit of you is deep within me.

therefore on your special day, I will just say one thing- Happpppppppy Happppppppppy wala birthday to you, may you keep smiling.

I am thankful to God for creating a gem like you. You are on girl who has always helped everyone and thus I am sure God will give you the best things in life. You will get every bit of joy in your life as you truly deserve it.

Following songs for you:

• Sajde kiye hai laakho, Laakho duayein maangi paya hai maine phir tujhe
• lazy Lamhe
• You are my fire
• Tune jo na kaha main woh sunta raha
• woh pehli baar jab hum mile
• Tum se hi din hota hai
• Tere Bina mAin (Crook)
• Jab mili tu
• As long as you love me
• Birthday Sex
• Bol na halke halke
• Cuppy cake
• Dil Ibadat
• Out of this club
• My love
• I-Love_you
• I am in love
• Hey Shona

Di there are unlimited songs that will describe, how much I love you and thus from the bottom of my heart I can just say one thing: I love you unlimited

Happy birthday, it is your day. You must enjoy it.

P:S happpy birthday and you will definitely get all the happiness in life . I am always with you my darling.

Ab toh proposal accept kar lo

Amazing birth history

Great history of some great people.

Indian record system is simply great. As a result of which today I am doubting my existence. The story starts in the following manner:

Me: principal maam, I need your help. I do not have a birth certificate. I need a birth certificate to get my passport made. Please help me.

Principal maam: Then how did you get an admission in College and school?

Me: I do not know!

Principal Maam: Ok , fine . Call in Sundriyal (Administrative Officer), Lets see what can be done.

Sudriyal Sir: Ji maam

Principal Maam: Sundriyal ji , kuch bhi karke iska passport banvaiye. Isko birth certificate chahiye, passport banvane ke liye. Toh, please you look into the matter and get it done.

Sundriyal Sir: passport ke liye birth ki copy kyun chahiye, woh toh tenth pass certificate se ho jayega.

me: Nai hoga, Reason, ek naya ammendment hua hai, All those who are born after Sept1, 1989 have to submit their birth certificate, tenth certificate is not valid. And my date of birth is Sept 28, 1989. So again a new problem.

Sundriyal Sir; Chalo koi baat nai, banva dete hai. He rings the bell to call peon (Pandev Bhaiya)

Pandev Bhaiya: Ji Sir

Sundriyal Sir: triveni ko bulana

Triveni sir: Triveni yeh iska birth certificate banvana hai toh MCD office jakar meri baat karvana

Me: Yippeee. Now things will start falling in place

Next Day

Me: triveni sir kya hua.

Triveni sir: It will take time

third day

Me: triveni sir, wat is the status

Triveni sir: Nikita ji, usme kaafi problem ho rai hai

Me: Kyun kya hua

Triveni Sir: According to the rule of the Indian govt, It is a rule, ki birth ke 24 hours later every hospital is required to forward their records to MCD, but apka kahin koi record nai hai, hospital mein koi record nai hai, MCD department mein koi record nai hai, toh ab kaffi mushkil ho rai hai.

Me: Toh ab aap yeh batao ki karna kya hai?

t Sir: Kya apke pass apke parents ka death certificate hai

Me: Nai humne liya hi nai tha.

T sir: Great. Aap toh bahut hi mahaan ho.

Me: Now what has to be done?

T Sir: Chalo kal dubara dekhta hu.

Day 4:

Me: Sir, kuch hua. Kuch ho sakta hai?

T. Sir: yeh form bharo, and isme likho ki aapka birth ghar pe hi hua tha

Me: Shocked , but had no choice so did as he said.

T. Sir: Ab main court jakar kuch affidavits banva kar lata hun, dekho shayad kaam ban jaye.

Me: Fingers crossed

So, finally the poor thing ran to court to get the thing done. Now, Affidavits are ready, but still some formalities need to be done, hopefully kal tak koi positive baat sunne ko mil jaaye. Although, I doubt our govt system but still I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Tomorrow I am going to Bikaji Kama place, let me teel you , if things go bad there also, I swear i will kill a few people. I am ready to be behind the bars now. This passport system is highly irritating with all the amazingly awesome tragedies happening with me.

P.S: I will fast for a monday if my passport gets ready on time.

First Rain of the Chilling Season

And finally it rained.....................

I love getting drenched in the rain.

Today it finally rained after a long time. The nature was simply at its best. Tiny rain droplets seemed to be the priceless pearls of the ocean. Everything looked just so perfect. The cool breeze of air blew my hair in backward direction, it felt as if nature whispered something in my ears. The leaves expressed their happiness by dancing in the air, the birds sang, peacocks danced and lotssssssss more.........

To some up.................. Everything looked SPECTACULAR. The truth is Delhi looks very beautiful when it rains, everything falls in place. The world is altogether a new place. For some time there is silence and peace around. One can actually identify himself at that point of time. The roads are silent, the parks and gardens are beautiful........

For a while the world seemed to be the most beautiful place. I wanted a break from the busy schedule that i am following these days, though i just got one hour but that one hour was just mine. I felt as if all the negativities have vanished from my life..........

Though i am back to my normal moribund life but still I am thankful to God for giving me this one hour of peace.

In this one hour: I interacted with the nature, spent time with my S tree. Did some amazing photography, Thanked God million of times for the beauty around, and missed two very special people of my life.

P:S - Thank you God

WISH

MY LIGHT

I walked through the Aile

but I could not see my light

I tried finding my way

but could not find the road

I wanted to fly, when something struck,,

Where are your wings?..........

I cribbed, I cried, I questioned and finally I fought

But then i fell into a deep and never ending thought.

I got out of it stood up again

but then suddenly the flooring cracked

and i tumbled again

I stood up again and saw the light

tried to catch it

Ran behind it

Came very close to it

almost got it

But then it went away,

far out of reach

IP. Rejection

Today i write here not as a student but as the 'junior Office Assistant' . Amidst the daily chores of the office work, today i was assigned the task of segregating the forms of the candidates who dream to take admission in the Indraprastha College for Women. A task which seemed interesting in the beginning but in no more than 10 seconds opened my eyes. I had to reject the candidates and throw away the forms of the students who dint qualify the so called criteria.
Its actually sad for me to srutinize the forms. In today's competitive world a student gives his/her 100 % to appear for the class 12th Board Examination so that he/she can avail admission in the best College in the best University. The Education system scrutinises the low scoring candidates and selects the best out of the lot. My question to this system is, doesnt the people with low scores have the right to seek admissions in good College or Universities dont they have the right to build a new start . Today every single point matters . I had to reject candidates who had the difference of point 5 percent, felt bad while doing so. For the College authorities its just a form but for an aspirant it means lot more.
I HATE THIS SYSTEM OF EDUCATION

Relationships

RELATIONSHIPS

Every individual undergoes various relationships in his/her life, some are sweet and some are sour but it lies in the hands of the individual to deal with it in the best manner. When we talk about relationships people mis-interpret the use of terminology. According to them Being in a relationship means being in a love affair with the person of the opposite sex.

According to me a person shares relationships with the following people:-

1. Parents

2. Sibblings

3. Extended Family

4. Friends

5. Teachers

6. Boss

7. Acquintances

8. Spouse

9. Children

10. Husband/Wife, Girlfriend/Boyfriend, Fiance, etc......

Therefore to link the term Relationship with just the tenth point mentioned above is not correct.

Every relation teaches us something which is very different from what we learn through various relationships experienced in our life.

I believe that a true relation is something that is really pure and sacred, it is an unconditional feeling.

Therefore relationship is something that every individual experiences at every stage of life.

MY DREAM HOUSE

MY DREAM HOUSE
I have a dream of being independent and living in hills therefore my dream house would be situated somewhere amidst the hills, with a cool stream flowing by, where the winds would be my friends, and hills would be my neighbours. My dream house would be beautiful and its interiors would be designed by me, it would be one of the rarest beautiful houses which one could have ever seen. With greenary all around, with garden full of seasonal flowers my dream house would be a perfect house. Not everyone would be welcomed there as i wont allow any negativity to enter my lane(had enough of negative elements in my life till date now i need a break) just a few friends who are close to my heart will be welcomed
Please Note: My dream house would be a special place with love all around.

Strange Feelings

THE CONCIOUS REPLIES

Sometimes i question myself, Who am I? What is my identity? What am i born to do? Where will my destiny take me to? What is my future? Where does my journey begin from? Where will it end? Who is my master? Who is my creater? What is my Goal? What is my ultimate destination? Why does the heart cry? Why do we feel pain? Why does one has to suffer? Why is it difficult to for people to select their destination?

All these questions bother me every now and then, And unfortunately there is no answer to all these quetions. I dont know if the road that i have selected for my journey is right or wrong neither i know about its consequenses, the only thing that i am sure about is that this journey is not at all easy as it has varoius milestones and to cross each milestone one has to face various challenges which is tough and that is why we often loose the track but as far as i am concerned I will definitely not loose the track as i know that i have the guts to face it. As for the other strange questions are concerned i am still trying to seek the answers for them and I am sure that one day my concious will definitely reply.

Please Note: I believe that the concious replies.

MY ANGEL , MY LUCKY CHARM

This one is dedicated to my angel , to my lucky charm , to my darling , to my janeman- Urf 'S'

She came into my life like an angel, taught me the reality of life, gave me the courage to face my problems, made me what i am today, killed the coward female inside me and turned me into a brave soldier. She taught me how to smile, she taught how to see the positive side of every negativity that entered the lane of my life, She took me out of depression and marked a new journey of my life, she made me realise the goal of life. She is the only person who calls me a blessing, she is the only person to whom i cannot lie, she is one person who can look into my eyes and guess that something is wrong in-fact i must say that she is my soul without which i wont be able to live.
She is one person whom i value alot, not because of what i have written above: but because of the following reasons:
1. She is the only person who understands me and my pain.
2. She has accepted me the way i am.
3. She was there with me in times when i had no one, when my own family had departed me, when i needed a shoulder to cry upon.
4. She is the only person who calls me a blessing and at times behaves like a mother. With her i feel secure and at times i can feel the warmth which i could have got only from my mom.
5. She fought for me from the entire college , without giving any prior notification she has tried to help me and never made me realise that she is doing all this for me.
6. She is caring , honest , a lil crazy but very loving. Had i been a guy i would have definitely married her.
7. She is my blessing , my angel who is really pure at heart , she loves things which todays generation simply ignore. eg. Respect for elderly people, love for children etc

Today through this blog i just simply want to thank her for being such a precious part of my life.

Please see: I love you di and thanks for being there by my side.

TOUGHEST TIMES

Toughest Times...................
It is said that bad luck follows you everywhere, but i dont agree with the statement as i believe that it doesnt follow you in-fact it is a part of your life.
The blog that i am writing here today is for myself, i have no intentions of gaining sympathy from my friends.
Today i am burdened with loads of problems. It is said that when God closes one door he also opens ten more doors, but to be honest i cant even see one. There comes a time in everyone's life when one has to take a stand and that time has come in my life, i dont know what to decide . I am unable to take my stand. Sometimes tough times comes with a solution and rest of the time they leave you amidst the road side pits which are left unobserved by the so called passers.
Today i am playing the role of one of those thousands unobserved pit who is trying to take stand to discover her true self but is being unable to do so.

But still i am sure that i'll be able to come off it, I am sure that i'll be able to outgrow all this, coz there is someone who says " it happens to y ou coz you have the guts to face it"
and since i am not a looser i am going to face it and mark a new journey.

THE BITTER TRUTH

THE BITTER TRUTH...............

The bitter truth of life is 'SEPERATION' ..
Sometimes being practical in life is not that easy, we talk something but actually mean something else. Centuries ago a Roman psychiatrist Cicero Said " Eyes are the image of the soul." Well i do agree with him coz i am the one who is practically experiencing it in my life.
Well coming back to the bitter truth i.e Seperation: These days i am bracing my self to face the toughest seperation of my life. Each day i ask myself to be practical, to face the reality, to cherish this seperation and move on : but trust me its next to impossible to do so, especially for a girl like me, who has been longing for love since past ten years, and now when i have finally got someone, who actually held my hand and marked my journey out of depression , the time of seperation has approached. Once again i'll be left alone. In no while i became so attatched to this love of my life that it has become an addiction for me. I dont know how I am going to survive after this seperation, but i am glad that all this is happening after my exams or else my sadness would have ruined my future. But as she says that its tough and not impossible to move on , i hope even I'll be able to move on.

One thing that i know is that now both of us share a spiritual relationship yet the pain of seperation creeps into my heart.
Please note: The person i am talking about is a friend cum elder sister whom i met last year.

gender hippocracy

THIS IS WHAT I CALL GENDER HIPPOCRACY

Born on an unfortunate night is a girl , who has to face the harsh realities of life . No matter what the time, what the place she is the one who is abused and have to face the brutalities of life. Following are the hippocracies followed by these so called patriarchy designers of our society:
1. a girl child is always considered a burden on the family but it is she who will be worshipped on the laxmi poojan day
2. on one hand she is beaten badly, abused and flung all over the room and on the other she is told to tie a black ribbon on the new vehicle brought in the family : which would bring good luck
3. on one hand she is cursed for being a burden on the family and on the other she is the one who takes care of the entire household chores: Well is she really a burden ? i guess she is the one who bears the burden
4. She is considered goddess on the auspicious dates but is considered the doorway to hell on the rest of the regular dark days.
5. She is the one who turns a building of four walls into a house and she is also the only one who is considered the burden on that very house
6. According to the shastras a men may go and marry thousands of women, a man may go and rape innumerable number of girls and still be called a saint whereas it is she who has to face the after-effects
7. for a man to loose his virginity is not a big issue but for a woman to loose her virginity before marriage is like a hideous crime done
8. all the abuses are female centered , my question to the patriarchy is why isnt it male centered?

Thus the so called tigers of our society are always on hunt and are constantly looking for preys in a secret manner which very well depicts their 'HIPPOCRACY'

Please Note: We have to change the system to make the world a better place to live in.