WISH

MY LIGHT

I walked through the Aile

but I could not see my light

I tried finding my way

but could not find the road

I wanted to fly, when something struck,,

Where are your wings?..........

I cribbed, I cried, I questioned and finally I fought

But then i fell into a deep and never ending thought.

I got out of it stood up again

but then suddenly the flooring cracked

and i tumbled again

I stood up again and saw the light

tried to catch it

Ran behind it

Came very close to it

almost got it

But then it went away,

far out of reach

IP. Rejection

Today i write here not as a student but as the 'junior Office Assistant' . Amidst the daily chores of the office work, today i was assigned the task of segregating the forms of the candidates who dream to take admission in the Indraprastha College for Women. A task which seemed interesting in the beginning but in no more than 10 seconds opened my eyes. I had to reject the candidates and throw away the forms of the students who dint qualify the so called criteria.
Its actually sad for me to srutinize the forms. In today's competitive world a student gives his/her 100 % to appear for the class 12th Board Examination so that he/she can avail admission in the best College in the best University. The Education system scrutinises the low scoring candidates and selects the best out of the lot. My question to this system is, doesnt the people with low scores have the right to seek admissions in good College or Universities dont they have the right to build a new start . Today every single point matters . I had to reject candidates who had the difference of point 5 percent, felt bad while doing so. For the College authorities its just a form but for an aspirant it means lot more.
I HATE THIS SYSTEM OF EDUCATION

Relationships

RELATIONSHIPS

Every individual undergoes various relationships in his/her life, some are sweet and some are sour but it lies in the hands of the individual to deal with it in the best manner. When we talk about relationships people mis-interpret the use of terminology. According to them Being in a relationship means being in a love affair with the person of the opposite sex.

According to me a person shares relationships with the following people:-

1. Parents

2. Sibblings

3. Extended Family

4. Friends

5. Teachers

6. Boss

7. Acquintances

8. Spouse

9. Children

10. Husband/Wife, Girlfriend/Boyfriend, Fiance, etc......

Therefore to link the term Relationship with just the tenth point mentioned above is not correct.

Every relation teaches us something which is very different from what we learn through various relationships experienced in our life.

I believe that a true relation is something that is really pure and sacred, it is an unconditional feeling.

Therefore relationship is something that every individual experiences at every stage of life.

MY DREAM HOUSE

MY DREAM HOUSE
I have a dream of being independent and living in hills therefore my dream house would be situated somewhere amidst the hills, with a cool stream flowing by, where the winds would be my friends, and hills would be my neighbours. My dream house would be beautiful and its interiors would be designed by me, it would be one of the rarest beautiful houses which one could have ever seen. With greenary all around, with garden full of seasonal flowers my dream house would be a perfect house. Not everyone would be welcomed there as i wont allow any negativity to enter my lane(had enough of negative elements in my life till date now i need a break) just a few friends who are close to my heart will be welcomed
Please Note: My dream house would be a special place with love all around.

Strange Feelings

THE CONCIOUS REPLIES

Sometimes i question myself, Who am I? What is my identity? What am i born to do? Where will my destiny take me to? What is my future? Where does my journey begin from? Where will it end? Who is my master? Who is my creater? What is my Goal? What is my ultimate destination? Why does the heart cry? Why do we feel pain? Why does one has to suffer? Why is it difficult to for people to select their destination?

All these questions bother me every now and then, And unfortunately there is no answer to all these quetions. I dont know if the road that i have selected for my journey is right or wrong neither i know about its consequenses, the only thing that i am sure about is that this journey is not at all easy as it has varoius milestones and to cross each milestone one has to face various challenges which is tough and that is why we often loose the track but as far as i am concerned I will definitely not loose the track as i know that i have the guts to face it. As for the other strange questions are concerned i am still trying to seek the answers for them and I am sure that one day my concious will definitely reply.

Please Note: I believe that the concious replies.

MY ANGEL , MY LUCKY CHARM

This one is dedicated to my angel , to my lucky charm , to my darling , to my janeman- Urf 'S'

She came into my life like an angel, taught me the reality of life, gave me the courage to face my problems, made me what i am today, killed the coward female inside me and turned me into a brave soldier. She taught me how to smile, she taught how to see the positive side of every negativity that entered the lane of my life, She took me out of depression and marked a new journey of my life, she made me realise the goal of life. She is the only person who calls me a blessing, she is the only person to whom i cannot lie, she is one person who can look into my eyes and guess that something is wrong in-fact i must say that she is my soul without which i wont be able to live.
She is one person whom i value alot, not because of what i have written above: but because of the following reasons:
1. She is the only person who understands me and my pain.
2. She has accepted me the way i am.
3. She was there with me in times when i had no one, when my own family had departed me, when i needed a shoulder to cry upon.
4. She is the only person who calls me a blessing and at times behaves like a mother. With her i feel secure and at times i can feel the warmth which i could have got only from my mom.
5. She fought for me from the entire college , without giving any prior notification she has tried to help me and never made me realise that she is doing all this for me.
6. She is caring , honest , a lil crazy but very loving. Had i been a guy i would have definitely married her.
7. She is my blessing , my angel who is really pure at heart , she loves things which todays generation simply ignore. eg. Respect for elderly people, love for children etc

Today through this blog i just simply want to thank her for being such a precious part of my life.

Please see: I love you di and thanks for being there by my side.

TOUGHEST TIMES

Toughest Times...................
It is said that bad luck follows you everywhere, but i dont agree with the statement as i believe that it doesnt follow you in-fact it is a part of your life.
The blog that i am writing here today is for myself, i have no intentions of gaining sympathy from my friends.
Today i am burdened with loads of problems. It is said that when God closes one door he also opens ten more doors, but to be honest i cant even see one. There comes a time in everyone's life when one has to take a stand and that time has come in my life, i dont know what to decide . I am unable to take my stand. Sometimes tough times comes with a solution and rest of the time they leave you amidst the road side pits which are left unobserved by the so called passers.
Today i am playing the role of one of those thousands unobserved pit who is trying to take stand to discover her true self but is being unable to do so.

But still i am sure that i'll be able to come off it, I am sure that i'll be able to outgrow all this, coz there is someone who says " it happens to y ou coz you have the guts to face it"
and since i am not a looser i am going to face it and mark a new journey.