A LOUD CRY

A LOUD CRY OF AN INNOCENT GIRL WHICH WENT UNHEARD:
Once upon a time there lived a girl in a strange land ,
with people full of hatred around she tried to hide her pain
No one tried to see her plight
for she was the unlucky child.

One day came an angel who tried to help
But slowly realised that there was no end
She supported her to a large extent
Tried all the possible solutions that could come.

The girl kept questioning her lord and fate
but got no answers regarding her pain
She was beaten up again and flung all over the room
so she got up and questioned once again

she tried to figure out her mistakes again
but finally realised that she is not wrong again
Once again her small dreams were shattered
once again her cry went unheard..

She always questioned her destiny for her scrutiny
but never got the true humility
She never got what she deserved in life
And if she got it , it was snatched in a while

So with the pain in heart again
she walks along the treading lane
with thorns as gifts she hides her tears
with fake smile she hides her fears.

The poetess here is waiting for the day
when the cry of this girl will be no more in vain.........

Lonely

LONELY

She is alone and desolate

She does not know what is coming her way.

She is quite and is helpless

Yet she is trying to see what is unclear and unsaid.

A tear, a fear and with pain in heart

She is accepting her lonely path.

She fought, she tried and she took a stand

But was betrayed and was left to cry again.

She has her plans in her mind and is waiting

For the right to come and to establish them.

P.S: She is alone and desolate, but she is not week as she is waiting for her way to be in her reach

STRANGE BUT TRUE

शायद यह पहली दफा है की में हिंदी में कुछ लिखने जा रही हूँ, पर यह जो भी है सच है! 

किसी ने सच ही कहा की भावनाओ की कोई भाषा नै होती. दिल से निकली हर बात, किसी न किसी रूप में जुबान पर आ ही जाती है. आज कुछ ऐसा ही मेरे साथ भी हो रहा है.

एक अजीब सा सन्नाटा है, एक अजीब सी घबराहट है, आगे आने वाले इस समय को लेकर एक अजीब सी झुनझुनाहट है! में नहीं जानती की यह क्या है, क्यूँ है कैसे है ! बस इतना जानती हूँ की जो भी है अजीब है. वोह कहते है न - अजीब दास्ताँ है यह..................... वगरह वगरह ! आज ऐसा ही कुछ मेरे साथ भी है. सब ठीक है, फिर भी दिल में एक डर है, सब शांत है फिर भी हवाओं में झुनझुनाहट है, ऐसा लग रहा है जैसे यह घबराहट कुछ कहना छाती है मुझसे, ऐसा लग रहा है जैसे यह हवाएं किसी बारे में आगाह कर रही हैं मुझे. ऐसा भी लग रहा है जैसे कोई तूफ़ान सा आने वाले है ज़िन्दगी में.................

हो सकता है की यह मेरा वहम हो, हो सकता है की यह सच हो , जो भी हो मैं अपने भगवन से दुआ करती हूँ की यह वक़्त गुज़र जाये, यह हवाएं बह जाये और ज़िन्दगी की इन अजीब राहों पर चलने की मुझे ताकत मिल जाये.............................!

IDENTITY ISSUES

7 FEB 2012, THE DAY OF IDENTITY ISSUES

Once again I am here to express my heart rather i should say cry my heart before the sweet little walls of my self obsessed blog. Once again I am here to vent out my frustration. After all here is the only place where I can shout, scream, cry, abuse and ......................................

I guess it happens with every individual at one time or the other when he she does not know what he or she is actually doing. I mean look at me, yesterday I was a star and today I am no one, not even a voice of those thousands of B.A Program students who ruin their lives by taking this subject as a course of study. What value does this course have and what does it produce? The answer is "NOTHING"  it produces nothing at all. It only yield a bunch of fools who are actually good for nothing. Let me think of one person who has been an achiever after completing his/ her graduation in B.A Program. I did not get any name on Google as well. I feel that Delhi University should completely shove off this course as it is only ruining life of students who actually land up doing nothing apart from small menial jobs here and there. Maybe I am just one frustrated bitch who is going on and on with my slangs here but what ever it is I am just what I am. To sum my profile in a line I am one frustrated bitch who has actually invited her down and dumps by her own hands.

Talking about the drawbacks my bloody biggest drawback was in me being a bereft who is forced to earn a living

This One is for You My dear!

Strange but true................................................... I never thought that letting you go even today would be as difficult as letting you go an year ago. Waiting for you would be as long as it was an year ago. The minute you called to say last good bye, my heart skipped a beat and time stopped. I could not understand the reason behind this strange behavior but one thing is clear,its love for you which made me do so. Its not at all easy to see you going away, even though I know that you will be back after six months my heart cries for you to be with me now and for ever. Despite the fact that I know that we will be in touch in all this time my heart just cant say good bye. I know that it is important for you to go and that is the only reason I am able to explain my heart that she will be back. My heart is weak and weeping at the moment but the truth is larger than this. The truth is that I love you so much that for your good and for your better future I am ready to face this pain of separation. I am ready to sit back here and count the days passing by for you to return.

I want you to know that you are special and an indispensable gift given to me by my almighty savior. You are an asset and people like you deserve the best in life. By time I will publish this post for you, you will be gone to come back  again.

I will wait for you to return here and say ," I am back".

Good luck and fare - well. Be safe and happy. also remember there is someone here in Delhi waiting for you to return.

P:S. I Love you and want you to return asap.

4 October, 2011

The day begins with a fine smile on my face and pain in my body. I do not understand my health and the facts associated with it. Neither do i understand the reason for this pain. I want to  be left alone and deserted in a corner for some time and be with myself. I wonder if I will ever get such a space and time to be left alone in desolation. 

Its not the physical pain that kills a human being but the mental pain that kills you every now and then. One such mental torture has been inflicted upon me by my destiny. 

Another historical moment got created in my life. I wonder if I will ever be able to come out of it because I know myself really well!. Me and my peanut sized brain will never let me change my way of judging things at the same time will never provide me a clear picture in my brain. 

I also wonder if I will ever be able to break my very own shackles created by me and move on in life. But I guess I am not as strong as people assume me to be.

In all this while I really thank my colleague who stood by my side while everything went on and supported me when I needed some adult the most. I also thank Principal ma'am for being there for me whenever I needed her. I guess it is because of her that I finally decided to move on and take this one step ahead. I wouldn't have ever been able to do it.

I hope that almighty give me enough strength and sets me free from all this.

I dont want to face any of this any more. 

P:S - I NEED A BREAK

Diary, October 3, 2011

Well as usual it was another hectic day. It made me feel that I am running a call center in College where the teachers of the entire college ring me up to rectify their various issues. The package on which we people is not really complicated but yes it is kind of technical enhancement and basically a way in which we can welcome technology with open arms. People at times criticize the efforts ignoring the fact that technology makes life easier. I do not get the point that why people abstain from change.

I personally believe that everyone should go ahead and explore new adventures. Age is not and can never be a bar to learn something or explore something. One has to take an initiative to make things better.

I hope that our efforts are appraised and things are welcomed.

P:S fingers crossed. Lets see whats coming up more.............. Calls are welcomed and issues will be resolved within 24 hours.